Name and Pronouns Change !

Hello hello.

Well... it's been a couple months now that I've been considering changing my name so here it is... I'm making an official announcement because although I won't be changing the URLs or anything, my name is changing and I want people to be aware of it.

I've chosen the name Élie ! Voilà lol. Now, how to finally associate this name with me when I look into the mirror even though I've been thinking about it for months and address my own internalised transmisia... thats gonna be another issue.

Also, from now on, I will be using exclusively they/them pronouns. For other languages, neutral language is preferred (for example, hen in Swedish, iel in French...). If it is totally impossible, I will accept masculine language, but not feminine language, as it makes me feel super dysphoric.

Voilà, that's all ! Thanks for reading and I will see you soon !

KIDNEYS ! (yeah, don't expect me to drop that just because Capaldi is out of Doctor Who XD)

What I've Done For The Last Fucking Year And A Half

Oh wow it's been such a long time since I last posted here.

Anyways.

I just wanted to give y'all a little life update and what happened during my 2017 and 2018 so far !

I watched the Doctor Who 2016 special. To be quite honest, I didn't find this episode as tremendous as the previous Christmas Specials. The enemies were kinda creepy and the plot was really nice, but you could really see that there was an atmosphere of the "weird era" between two companions...

About the plot, I think it was kinda great, except when you realise that all that the man wanted was to get his lady ? I don't know. I mean, it was good, but not really... memorable ? I liked Nardole, that's pretty much about it. Oh, and when the Doctor brings food in the middle of a very action-packed scene. That was great.

Otherwise, it was very cliché, the sterotypes of "Oh, I gotta protect you and stuff, I can't reveal my real identity", and it just shows that the dude is just replicating his own favourite comic books in real life. It was good... just not great.

Then I watched series 4 of Sherlock (the BBC version), and tbh it was full of queerbaiting and it was shit (especially the last episode imo).

I got my bachelor's degree in foreign languages and I'm getting in a Master's degree in Linguistics and Communications ! Yay ! At this rate imma become a political journalist/activist hahaha !

I also bingewatched the third series of Broadchurch and the third season of Fargo. Broadchurch was good, a little bit triggering though since the main case is about rape, and Fargo was good too, although they murdered the characters I was supporting the most (won't tell you though, to not spoil you, but it's very sad).

(I am also looking for similar TV shows to Broadchurch, like a whodunit with a main case over a series/season each, with drama, and how crime affects the people around the victims, and stuff like that, like, a TV show with a very similar mood/aesthetic to Broadchurch please !)

Talking about my mental and physical health, I'm getting better (although I had a fucking burnout during the end of the first semester that lasted the whole winter and I am still recovering from it). I am actually looking forward to therapy (that I started a few weeks ago) and coming out as trans/nb to my family (and also changing my name at a certain point because my deadname makes me feel more and more dysphoric everyday tbh). I am more secure in my gender than ever and I am finally reclaiming the word transgender for myself. (I would love to do my coming-out to my family via a book that would talk about trans/nb stuff hahaha !).

Physically, I am just juggling between doctors, I've done back and pelvis scans that revealed that they are both deviated 7mm to one side but apparently it's "nothing" for the doctors and I am "perfectly healthy". I also went to the dentist and my jaw is inflamed so imma go back for more physical therapy lol. I am more looking at fibromyalgia and CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) to see if my symptoms are the ones described by those two diagnoses. I just don't know at this point. It looks like my body just accumulates "small things" that go unnoticed and that just causes a lot of pain in the end. I just wish that I had a diagnosis and something that works to calm it down because my pain meds just don't cut it...

Anyways, I will stop there. I hope everything's good for you and see you soon hopefully !

And always, our last word : KIDNEYS !

Advent Calendar #25 : What I Want For Christmas

Advent Calendar #25 : What I Want For Christmas

(dedicated to a special someone <3)

What I want for Christmas

Is for someone to say me "yes"

I've known her now for quite a while
And I think it's finally time.

I am a little worried and very apprehensive
And I hope it will go okay
After all it is only my first time
Asking for such a strange thing.

But she is the cutest and oh so worth it
And she will (maybe) recognise herself in this
I promised myself I would wait until Christmas
So now it is time to ask her the crucial question :

Will you be pretty please my zucchini ?

101 words.

Advent Calendar #24 : A Merry Autistic Christmas !

Advent Calendar #24 : A Merry Autistic Christmas !

If you celebrate Christmas or any holidays

With someone who is autistic,

Please hear these words of wisdom

Coming from an autistic adult themself.

Please be patient with us, as we might get overloaded ;

Loads of lights and sounds and people quickly exhaust us.

So, please prepare a quiet room for us, just for us to rest

So we can enjoy the festivities even better.

Please also give us time to open our presents, as surprises

Aren't our forté. Sometimes, we might need to know

What's inside before we open it. Or even prefer money

Or vouchers for our favourite store, and let us buy things on our own.

If you're wondering what you should get to an autistic person,

Don't be afraid to ask us ! Things that are related to our special interests,

Are usually your best bet with us. Or maybe start learning something with us !

We would love to share things with you during these holidays.

Also, please be understanding and clear with your plans,

And feel free to involve us in any cooking, preparations and planning !

We would love to participate in the making of the festivities

As it will allow us to control and know what will happen next.

In the end, treat us like any other guest, just a little different ;

Invite us in your conversations, and at your tables ;

As we are just as worthy as you

To have a merry Christmas and holidays.

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Advent Calendar #23 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 9

Advent Calendar #23 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 9

"Not at all, Helper, the King replied. I am afraid to tell you,

But I have never heard such rumours. Why would you suspect the Palace first ?"

"I just thought you would have some news, but apparently you don't.

I will interoggate your subject then, and hope they will have more answers than you do."

"Wait ! the King stopped Helper as they were walking away.

I... we know about something. A group of rebels, in the West Coast,

Talked about some revenge, and children, and gifts... I don't know more.

But please, spare my subjects. They are loyal and deserve the best."

"Well, I will go there, thank you. You will be rewarded for your loyalty,

If we find Santa Claus alive. If not... please be prepared to bear

All the consequences of this act of terrorism. Is it clear, your Majesty ?"

"Very clear, Helper. I will make sure everything goes alright."

The King even dispatched some of his own troops to help Helper

To find back Santa Claus. A couple hours later, they were arrived

At the place mentioned by the King. "Looks like the engine used

To kidnap Santa Claus, Helper.", a soldier said.

The troops then decided to go down on the place, tracking it down

And finding Santa Claus, alive, in a room. He was safe.

Next to him, was the chief of the rebels. "Why did you do this ?", Helper asked.

"Why did you kidnap Santa Claus ?"

"Because we're tired ! Human children get everything they want,

And we don't ! This is just unfair ! We work and slave away

For these little creatures that never give us anything back !

We want our share of the benefits, too !"

"I'm afraid, but this is life, Helper responded. You will be punished

Accordingly to your acts. Such treason should never be accepted.

Your King, however, will be pleased to know that, since he denounced you,

He will be rewarded. Ironic, isn't it ? Let's go, everyone !"

And this is how the Penguins learned that the Factory didn't care about them at all.

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Advent Calendar #22 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 8

Advent Calendar #22 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 8

Santa's Little Helper started their negociations

By knoching on the door of the Penguin Palace.

There, they were conducted to his Majesty, Joseph The Third,

King of the Penguin Land.

"You prompted to see me quickly, Helper, the King said.

Is there a problem ? Did we do something... wrong ?"

"We are worried, your Majesty, and are afraid to tell you

That Santa Claus disappeared, a few days ago."

"We are suspecting some Penguins to be around this affair,

As traces of one of your engines has been found near the Factory,

And this card was found on his bed. Would you have any informations

About this incident, your Majesty ? Among... your subjects, for example ?"

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Advent Calendar #21 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 7

Advent Calendar #21 : Santa Claus' Vanishing, Part 7

Santa's Little Helper, before leaving, increased the guard

Around Mrs Claus' apartments, and made sure that she would be followed

By armed police forces at all times, for her security.

Santa Claus' wife didn't object, after all, she was scared too.

Helper then decided to start the operations to go northwards,

Towards the Penguin Lands. He knew what he was doing,

And where he was going. He just had to follow the trails,

Quickly, before the snow would cover them all.

"Here is our plan, Helper told the other military Elves

That were with them. We're here to peacefully interrogate
The Penguin King and will try to have a peaceful negociation
With him. However, if it doesn't work... pray we don't have to use lethal methods."

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